10th day sober. Last night I finished listing some things on Ebay, and was just starting to feel like I ought to settle down and get to bed early when I found I had a headache, felt chilled, and my teeth even chattered! Plus body aches all over. So I went to bed with the heater pointed toward me on low, and didn't sleep at all but did something that's kind of like sleep where I try to be very quiet and sort of meditate.
I finally got up around 4:30 because the guy who bought three modules from us is buying the mainframe and will come by to pick it up. He called on the phone to ask what's going on, and I said my 2nd covid shot was kicking my ass and I'll accept his offer for the mainframe and he can come by and pick it up.
My sleepnessness doesn't have to do with the shot, but with my withdrawal from alcohol. Before, when I got sober, I was always able to get back to that good old sober sleep. But it looks like this time around it's going to take some time.
I'm reading "This Naked Mind", a book they rave about on the Reddit forums r/stopdrinking r/alcoholism etc., and it's pretty good so far. The author compares drinking to the effect on bugs of the pitcher plant, where they get lured in by what smells like lovely nectar, and go gradually further and further in until there's no return. But this does not mean that people who only drink a little are any different from the most degenerate wino; as long as they think that "on some level" alcohol is beneficial they're in the trap.
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