Sunday, January 31, 2021

The Lonely Microwave

 I woke up at something like 6AM, had the last bit of sake and went back to bed until around noon. What a life! 

Since there's so much less socializing, I find I'm being nicer to people I do get to socialize with. I wear my mask 100% when outside, even when huffing and puffing on my bike. It's not necessary, but I care about other people and want to set a good example. I haven't cussed at a driver in ages; instead I've been working out ways to work with the way traffic works and find the best place to be in the flow. And for every nasty driver there are at least a few nice ones and most are indifferent. 

We have nice conversations in Nijiya Market. Blondie was at the till yesterday, and asked me what's the news. I told him not much, but Oh wait, part of highway 1 is washed out, as in gone, at Big Sur. I told him there's some great drone footage to be found, then since he apparently didn't know about Reddit, I wrote out the URL for reddit r/bayarea. "Oh, I know about Reddit", he then said. Funny guy. I have the impression he's sort of searching for a political orientation that works for him, and I want to make sure he doesn't become a rightist. I fell for that garbage when I was around his age... 

But another funny thing yesterday ... I was riding along 5th to visit one of the little free libraries and there was a nice desk and what I wasn't sure was a microwave or a toaster oven sitting on it, out by the curb. So I pulled in to have a look. A guy who looked kind of like a cleaned-up Kurt Cobain was sitting on the steps of the house there, and said, "Oh, it's called for, I'm just waiting for the guy" in a friendly tone. I said I didn't need a "Chef Mike" anyway, but was thinking maybe it was a toaster oven. "But, toaster ovens are cheap anyway, you can get a good one for 30 bucks new". It was all very friendly and I wished him a good weekend. 

It's fun to be nice to people! I don't know what was wrong with my mother but she couldn't seem to keep any friends. She seemed to be very paranoid and taught us to "never invite yourself to someone else's house" and "never ask, wait to be asked" and so on. And the truth is, kids invite themselves to other kids' houses all the time. "Let's go to your house!" and if it's really not OK, then the other kid says "Nah, I can''t because..." and that's fine too. 

Maybe Mom's paranoia was the safest way to live as a brown person. Go to other kids' houses much and you'd get blamed for anything that went missing. Get invited for dinner and endure the scowls of your host's parents and know he got a dressing-down afterward. I remember taking a Black friend of mine - a pretty solidly middle-class and intellectual guy who I think works for the NSA now - to my Grand-Aunt Mary's place and the temperature in the room dropped instantly. "Aunt Mary" as we called her was my father's aunt and painfully WASP, even had one of those horrible crucifix things hanging right over her bed. I don't remember my mom ever going to Aunt Mary's. We kids went. But I can't recall Mom and Aunt Mary ever talking face-to-face. 

Oldest sister told me Mom wanted to volunteer to go door-to-door for the March Of Dimes and was told she was too brown to be acceptable. Mom's been mistaken for the hired help. Mom, in Hawaii, never got a traffic ticket despite teaching herself how to drive in her 40s, and driving without a license or insurance or even a safety inspection (I'd paint a fake inspection sticker) because in Hawaii she looked local. She'd probably still be alive is she'd stayed there. 

These days I try to get plenty of sun.

Saturday, January 30, 2021

Let's hold a covid party

 Last night the guys at the cleaning place next door held a big covid party. To hold a proper covid party you have to not do it in a park or something because the police will tell you to break it up. What you really need to do is: Hold it in an enclosed space where you can hot-box each others' covid germs. Gather there for hours, for maximum exposure. To enhance this, mix in alcohol and encourage lots of loud singing and yelling and talking in each others' faces. These guys pretty much held the perfect covid party. Chuy, the owner or at least part-owner of the place, is older, oddly thin, and does not look that physically well on a good day and ought to know better. 

I finally got going with the things I'd packed around 4. I ran those up to FedEx and picked up some boxes and packing supplies on the way back, then rode over to the free libraries where I picked up a boxed set of "Queer As Folk" which is worth at least something on Ebay. I dropped off a package of "emergency rations" which are a sort of bunch of ... sugary pastry-like cakes, individually wrapped. I think if you poured milk on one you'd have something like muesli. Each Little Free Library got one. I then went to Nijiya and did a bit of shopping, including fried fish and a beer. 

On the way back I stopped at a pile of stuff I'd spotted outside the fence at the big Goodwill drop-off point on 7th. I came out ahead by two The Gap turtleneck sweaters and a Betty Crocker recipe file thing that looks all complete. By now it was zombie hours (dark) so I got my ass back here. 

I had my fish and beer, then tried an idea I'd thought of, of taking the lower-quality but cheaper saki ika I can buy at Dai Thanh for $2 a package and cutting it up small and mixing it with S&B crunchy garlic garnish. It was good, but not as good as Shirakiku smoked saki ika for $3 a package because that stuff is amazing.


Friday, January 29, 2021

Zombie bombs

 

 

In Michael Moore's documentary "Capitalism: A Love Story" house loans just before the '08 crash were described by one of his interviewees as "zombie bombs" and I imagined what that might look like...

I packed a lot of things last night and realized it was half past midnight so pau hana. I watched documentaries and drank sake and did a little voice exercises. 

I woke up a bit after 8, went back to sleep until about 10:30 and got up. I just had some raw sunflower seeds and ice water with lime and loaded up the bike and got going. It was really nice to be out in the sun and the clouds were beautiful today. The drop-offs went without a hitch, and I got back here in time, I thought, to keep a bank appointment at 2, so I went to make one but the appointments had filled up and I made one for 2:45. 

That was perfect because it gave me time to scramble some eggs and eat them, and head out in time with a couple of books which I exchanged at one little free library for a book called "Free Food For Millionaires" which I'd just been reading about on Reddit, and a biography of Eleanor Roosevelt. I got over to the bank and that went without a hitch, then went over to the Amazon hub to harvest bubble mailers and pick up a book, The Death Of Ivan Illich, because it's a classic and Morris Berman had said so-and-so on the Right hadn't ever read it, and I realized I hadn't either, so I'd better correct that. 

The trouble is, they've got some new system in place that depends on a person having a smart phone. I had to tell them my email address and they got me my package all right, but it takes longer for everyone to do everything so there was an actual crowd in the place. I hope the work the bugs out of this new system. In the meantime I'll have to print out the bar code and boogy right on over, or keep my email address written on a card to show them. 

I then went to Nijiya and got a ton of stuff, including a nice chirashi-don, and had it all loaded on my cart then realized I'd forgotten something. The checker (I was the only non-staff person in there except for one lady with a couple of kids so I really lucked out) let me just park my cart near the front and I went and got the missing thing: A tall can of Asahi "dry" beer. "I can't have the full chirashi experience without beer!" I told the guy and we had a laugh. The beer was only $3-something but I got careless on the buttons and got $20 cash back also. I got a $10 and two $5's because as I said to the guy, I've been keeping a cash-stash in small bills of escape money, although I'm less worried now that the election is settled. And by the time things get crazy again, I should be back home in Hawaii. 

(This got me thinking ... do I wait the full 4 years, or do I, if I can save enough to get by on for a year, leave in 3?) 

I got back here and enjoyed my chirashi-don and beer, Mmmm good! But I had tons of beer left in the can after eating, so I watched a couple documentaries while I finished taking this signal generator apart which really had some good parts like the ceramic strips you usually only find in old Tektronix oscilloscopes. When I was done with that, I packed 4 large things to take to FedEx tomorrow because we're due to have rain on Monday and Tuesday so if I can run 'em over to FedEx tomorrow (Saturday) then on Monday and Tuesday I'll have less things, and can wrap them in plastic or something. 

Thursday, January 28, 2021

Man-Or-Astro-Man? Or They Might Be Giants?

 I felt very useless and depressed when I got up yesterday, but somehow I got tons of things picked out of the warehouse (except for one little gadget I can't find and 50/50 will find today) and by the time Ken came by I had cleaned up and listed 9 large things (it was going to be 10, but one thing is a treasure cave of tubes and neat parts so I decided to part it out) and had those all put away, had cooked and eaten my dinner (salmon miso soup) and had the place neat and squared away. 

Ken even came by early and of course had more stuff to dump on me like some motors, a big CO2 laser, and other assorted junque. Some of it really was junk. 

We hung out and he had tea and we talked about the usual assortment of things like why mom'n'pop restaurants go downhill, and we watched some Money Python and Saturday Night Live videos and had some laughs. He left at 11:30 which was about an hour earlier than he often leaves. 

I must have felt energized by the socializing because I took the outer covers off of the thing I'd decided to part out, and took the big laser apart, and took some other stuff that was just junk, and put it out by the trash enclosure. 

I was awake around 10, did this deep breathing stuff I've discovered makes me feel better, and just relaxed, then got up at noon because I wanted to see if the junk had been taken. Nope. Lazy bums are lazy. There are usually types who go through with a truck or even a truck and trailer and pick up stuff because the HVAC place a few doors down tosses out things all the time. But I think by 1 or 2AM they'd done their circuit and the stuff will be there until after working hours tonight when it'll get picked up. 

I've been really getting into the band They Might Be Giants, the leading duo of which are, I believe, a couple years older than I am. And still having fun, apparently. Years ago, from the very late 90s to the early 2000s I was really into a bad called Man Or Astro-Man and it's a neat band. But they were really only active for maybe 5 years. Another musician I was really into before that was Joshua L. Pearson who fronted EBN/Emergency Broadcast Network and still seems to be putting out videos but he's pretty obscure. 

Rated in terms of "playfulness", I'd say Man Or Astro-Man is least, then Joshua L. Pearson, then The Beatles, then They Might Be Giants. One of the things that made The Beatles great is they could be playful. Songs like Penny Lane and The Octopus's Garden were just plain playful. There was a lot to worry about in the 1960s/early 70s like being drafted, serious riots and demonstrations, The Bomb, and Paul Ehrlich had just put out a blockbuster book about another bomb, of the population variety. A lot of other bands really tried to be playful, but The Beatles meant it. 

OK it might have helped that The Beatles were filthy rich, but the humor and playfulness was pure Liverpudlian working-class cheerfulness in spite of it all. 

This is what They Might Be Giants have managed to do. Songs like "Dr. Worm" and "Ana Ng" show that you can really make a song about just about anything, or nothing. They're an inspiration to me. 

One idea that seems to keep coming up in Buddhism is that a person is not the same person over time. You're not the same person at 20 you were at 15, or at 50 when you were 40 and so on. Change is permanent. So I notice I really got into Man Or Astro-Man? which were basically about "Surf guitar and space tech R cool" in other words, heavy metal for nerds. And now I'm really interested in a band that has ideas. Even the way they've kept going for the last 30+ years is a work of art.

Wednesday, January 27, 2021

Busking Blogs, of the Paucity Thereof

 It's pouring rain and I'm in for today and looks like will be shut-in tomorrow also. 

Last night or maybe it was this morning, the last bit of which I lay in bed for, getting up at noon, I thought about busker blogs. 

I'd been following the few I could find for years. Maybe it's closer to decades now. I have been able to find smatterings of busker *information* where people relate their experiences on sites as disparate as www.mudcat.org and www.violinist.com and Trumpet Herald. I found busking experiences going back as far as the 60s and 70s. 

But actual busking blogs are extremely rare. The Saw Lady, Natalia Perutz, was keeping one about her busking in the NYC subway system. And I think Cello Joe started out to do one, but in both of their cases they're really good and got bookings and a bit of fame and their blogs fell by the wayside. Marvin Naylor is the best busking blog I've found and he's collected his blog entries into two books. But he's not keeping up entries any more. 

I'd say the average busker isn't interested in writing down their busking experience each day, and less so if they're doing well. Why bring in competition? "Hey, that guy's making $100/day in Coos Bay, maybe I'll dig my guitar out of the closet..." Pretty soon there are three guys each making $33 a day. 

That might be the reason Marvin Naylor's kept going so long. He doesn't make that much money, at all. Also it's advertisement that he gives guitar lessons. He gets the odd gig, too, and least once went to Instanbul or someplace like that. I told him that sounded terribly exotic then did some research and realized Istanbul's closer to him than anywhere in Texas is to me. 

But if you're hoping to find some blog or blogs that will give you the Key To Live A Free Life By Busking, you're not going to find it. You just have to get out there. And you're gonna suck. Or, you'll have mastered every Radiohead song and really not suck, but your voice will be gone in a few days. It's going to be hard.  

Interestingly, I've never had anyone yell at me, "You Suck!". I've had a trumpet instructor, apparently, while walking by say with disgust that I was off-tune or something but then quickly follow it up with "But keep going!". I've had a couple of frat boys look me over like I was a specimen and then one of them say, "You look too 'together' to be out here doing this!" and I told him it was a side gig, like driving for Uber and that seemed to satisfy him. I've had a guy wince and say my PVC side-blown flute I'd made and was playing was "shrill" and frankly he wasn't wrong. And I've had lots of times of just making nothing, like $4 or $5 an hour. But it's not as hostile out there as most think. 

That was a huge hurdle for me to get over: embarrassment. When I failed at moving back to Hawaii in 2003, I'd have made a go of things and stayed if I'd had experience busking. I basically had none. For some reason I felt like it would be a huge embarrassment if I was out on the street playing music; that my older sister and her network of elite prep school alumni would spread it around the whole island that I'm an embarrassment and untrustworthy. 

The truth is, back home, almost no one will care. As long as I'm supporting myself legally and my music (if that's what I do) doesn't suck, it'll be fine. when people get to know me and see that I don't talk "street" or do "street" things like smoke cigarettes, don't have tattoos, they'll see that they won't have to count the silver around me.

I think back to when I left Hawaii to make my "fortune" on the mainland. It was 1986 and there was a hit song on the radio called "My Future's So Bright I Gotta Wear Shades". Just get into tech, be a yuppie. At the company I worked at, in a tall building looking out on one side over this really great Goodwill thrift store, co-workers saw me going in and out of there and that did *not* help my status. Someone who shopped at Goodwill might do anything, better count the silver... 

It's only been a pandemic and an economic depression or two since then... "Thrifting" is now cool. Hardly anyone believes in the old "work and you'll rise up" trope these days. Japan, go-go in 1986, had their economy crash in 1989 and now, in Japan and in China too, younger people are going out to the countryside to live on farms and communes. As facts skew "liberal", maybe the future skews Buddhist. 

Today there was a terrific piece on the radio show "Against The Grain" on KPFA about Friedrich Engels. The stuff he'd figured out in the 1840s, is the very same stuff we're concerned about now. He probably contributed as much to Marxism as Marx himself, and he not only wrote, but picked up a rifle more than once and fought, for revolution. Just the Wikipedia about him is a great read. 

It's only because of growing up and living in places like Hawaii and California that I know who Paul Robeson, a major 20th century figure, is. Or that Marx and Engels are worth studying or what an intellectual heavyweight MLK actually was. 

Tuesday, January 26, 2021

This Blog is Boring

 Up at noon; I'd been up until 4AM getting all the packages packed because I wanted to get out of here today before the rain came in. 

Honestly I should have just taken off before eating or anything, because the first trip was fine. I even noticed my favorite food truck parked out on Brokaw and stopped in. They didn't have those fried pork things but I got a plate of spaghetti for $5 that was just like really good school cafeteria spaghetti. I sat over at the fountain at Fry's to eat it. Or, wolf it down, rather. 

I came straight back after making my drop-offs and went back out again for sake. And, got rained on coming back but not too bad. Chowing down on a substantial meal and then riding a bike for miles is a recipe for indigestion, though, so once back here I had some kim chee to help me digest the sphaghetti. 

Now I'll be in for the next day or two, due to the rain. 

But see? This is the kind of boring stuff I'm writing down each day. It'd make sense if I were out busking each day and reporting because there's almost no documentation of that. Marvin Naylor's stopped posting on his blog and there really isn't any one else running a busking blog. The most lively busking writing online I've found is over on Reddit r/busking with "Lady With A Harp" being a standout. 

It would make sense if I were putting a drawing on here each day, in other words, working towards art as a retirement semi-career. But I haven't really been good about doing that, either. 

Originally this page was going to have lots of bitching about what a raw deal people are getting in life these days but there's no need for that, either, because everyone knows by now. So I'm not sure there's any more real need - if there ever was one - for this blog. 

I also put in some serious time thinking about why homeless/street people (some are housed but follow the "street" lifestyle) suck so much. In one of the Adam Curtis documentaries, one of the liberal politicians in England laments how they try to do all they can for the poor, who then turn around and vote for Tories (their version of Rebublicans). 

In the last day or two I read on Reddit, someone who's homeless (sounds like short-term) saying they have to not talk politics or "shut off their ears" because the homeless around him are all Trumpers. 

I can understand the rich voting for a creep who says they'll lower their taxes, because they don't give a crap about anyone who's beneath them. They, in fact, have an actual class consciousness, and they're looking out for their rich buddies as well as themselves. They're at least good at networking - in those circles it's all one big network from the prep school and college you went to, frats, hobbies like sailing or riding, etc. 

I got to experience just a whiff of that, if not rich then at least upper middle class, life and it's pretty nice. There's a lot of trust. If you're at the stable and see a problem with someone else's horse, you probably know that person and will help. If there's something wrong with your boat at the private marina, someone who knows you - because you'll all pretty much know each other - will look out for you. Your kids play together on weekends and go to each other's parties, and no one has to count the silver afterward. 

No one has to count the silver. 

I was thinking today about why the underclass would vote against their own interests, and was thinking maybe it's the appeal of a strong leader or racism or good old American hyper-individualism, or probably a mix of all three. But, as a long-time observer of buskers and street people in general (been fascinated before I ever busked, myself) one thing that turned out to be opposite of what I expected was that instead of networking and working together on things, they all hated each other. 

They hated each other because they feared each other and that was because street life seems to involve a continuous process of stealing and being stolen from, doing violence and being a victim of violence in return, slandering and gossiping and spitting hate at each other. 

There's an old hobo who posts on Reddit on r/vagabond and he's gone though a few names, I knew him as Ka-Bar then Ka-Bar2 and these days he's encinitas with some sort of number after that might be a Marines skill code. I greatly respect him. He once did the most remarkable post I'd call "How To Hobo 101" and he emphasizes always to keep the camp clean, look out for the other guy, and how to make cookware from stuff you can always get like food cans and coat hanger wire. People who don't learn to do this depend more on money, which you want to minimize the use of, and end up borrowing or stealing. His contemptuous name for these types is "streamliners" in other words, they just want to skate though life on others' dime and others' effort - and their gear, if they can steal it. 

Ka-Bar was a real hobo, doing most of his hobo'ing in the 1960s I believe, back when the real 1930s guys were still alive. To cite the old saw, "A hobo travels and works; a tramp travels but does not work, and a bum does neither". They took pride in doing work no one else wanted to do, like agricultural work but any sort of scut work - that meant the public would value hobos and the old code also called for being a paragon of honesty. A real hobo might be smelly but only until he could get a "boil up" (hot bath) in your backyard and then he'd chop wood for you and clean the gutters and you'd serve him dinner and give him some food to take with him and money besides, and ... 

you'd not have to count the silver. 

But these street people around now, each is an island of one and the constant Brownian motion of stealing and fighting keeps them that way. They're ... not good at being people. They were probably petty thieves when they were in grade school. Of course they're going to be pro-Trump. He's ugly, nasty, and hateful - he's one of them! The Republicans are a distinctly nasty, self-centered, group of people and thus the underclass gravitates to them. Just as, to a street person an act of kindness is seen as weakness, they literally can't comprehend why anyone, anyone at all, would want to set up a free library or a school breakfast program. Thus, it must be a scam and meanwhile let's take advantage of it as long as we can, but vote for it? Hell no! 

"Being people" is more than being able to go out and earn money. It means being able to work within a network of people and care about them, and keep yourself so they care about you. The rich, with their country clubs and sporting activities and hobbies and all that, teach that to their children. But the working-class on down are not taught that at all. Others are to be feared - they might rip you off! 

What's worse is, if you're taught to be distrustful and especially if you're raised so that it's OK to be untrustworthy (like it's OK to steal as long as you're not caught) you'll probably never learn to trust because no one's going to trust you. Things end up missing from their house whenever you're over so you stop being invited. 

The Gypsies have a sort of loop like this going on. No one trusts them because they steal etc., and they end up being hated, and they in turn hate non-Gypsies seeing them just as marks. But at least Gypsies look out for each other. Street people don't even do that. They're the most hyper-individualistic in a hyper-individualistic society. 

But what if you befriend them? Due to my curiosity about buskers and others who seem to have found an easier, unconventional, way to make a living I've talked and hung out with them more than the average person. Renee, if I'd stayed friendly, was almost certainly going to try to get me into the same drugs she and her crowd were into. Crack, I think, because none of them have "meth mouths" but they probably take any drugs they can get. One busker tried his best to convinced me another busker is a pedophile, something I've seen no evidence of and I'm glad I don't see the first guy around these days because rumors like that could get the 2nd guy killed. 

Of course there are good buskers. Leroy who plays sax, Cello Joe, hell my old violin teacher, are all buskers and are really good people but the difference is, they're not "street". In fact while Leroy's working class, the other two are actually upper middle class. They just go out and busk because it's fun. 

There's that overlap between a busker and "street". Red, the flute player, is a perfect example. The more I got to know him, the crazier I found him to be. 

So to make it short, "street" people are not of a culture a normal person should want to have anything to do with.

Monday, January 25, 2021

The pitter-patter of big feet

 I woke up a bit before noon due to people walking around on the roof. The wind and rain had apparently damaged something and they were up there to fix it. I went back to bed and thought I was maybe lying in until around 2, but when I got up for real, it was half after 12. 

I checked Ebay and a seller who doesn't show up on the system is demanding a refund for a sale I can't find a record of my having sold. The item's one I've listed, but I'm sure it's some kind of fraud. It's times like this when I'm reminded of just how much I hate Ebay. I can do better per hour panhandling anyway, which I consider a far nobler way to make a living. 

And panhandling is something I rate below hustling handicrafts, busking, odd jobs, etc. 

In other words even if I leave for Hawaii before I'm old enough to get Social Security, there's no way I'll fall into the trap of selling on Ebay. I'd get better prices for anything I'd sell on Ebay by hustling the same thing to tourists anyway. But the main idea is to live on very little. We're talking, other than shelter, spending $200 a month maybe. $10 a day panhandling or busking or hustling makes $300 a month which is a lot of money. 

I'm reminded of a guy I heard of, who lived in a sort rambling house or set of houses, I was never quite clear on that, that was next to where I had an apartment in Waikiki in 2003. He'd worked "in computers" and that's enough to rob anyone of their mind. He detailed cars, 1-2 a day as that was "enough". 

I'm also reminded of one of my older sister's boyfriends, a guy who went by the name of "Don". This was during the puka shell boom of the mid-70s and a primo necklace could go for $100 in 1970s dollars. Don would hustle puka shell necklaces to tourists on the beach. Most people would lay a towel on the trunk of their car and park it by the beach and wait for buyers to come to them, but not Don. Some corn-fed tourists would be out lying on the beach at Pipeline or Waimea Bay and suddenly there's this middle-aged, muscular, tan, guy, shirtless and wearing one of those little white sailor hats, hustling them the puka shell necklaces they were probably going to get around to buying anyway. This way they bought them from Don. 

I remember my father saying in equal parts exasperation and admiration that Don would always survive as he's a hustler. He's probably got an 8th grade education, Dad said, but he's always getting out there and making an effort. This was the time when we started our downfall from middle class to very poor. 

I finally got out of here around 4 and rode up to H Mart and locked up the bike. I walked over to Ross and found a pair of sweat pants (I recently bought two "Michael Jordan" ones, one of which I love and the others I do not - too short!) and a long-sleeved T-shirt from the movie "Elf" that has the elf dude smiling and saying "Son of a nutcracker" - the main thing it was 49c and it'll make a nice layer to wear under a jacket as the weather gradually warms. 

After walking back and stashing those in the bike bags I went into H Mart and got sake, raw sunflower seeds, and no "8 Mate" senbei (comes in 8 little packs) because they were out. I went back out into the cold wind and once I got going I remembered - I'd intended to get some Yakult because I kind of had the shits from eating (I think) raw green beans. So once I got back here I had some natto and kim chee because kim chee has probiotics in it also. 

It was really cold out there and I'm hoping my ploy of packing a ton of stuff today/tonight and taking it to the post office/FedEx before the rain comes in, is a workable one.

Sunday, January 24, 2021

Rain day as promised

 It was a rain day as promised.  I got some stuff listed on Ebay and Ebay was being a pain as, near the end, it was making me re-enter the password for each item. 

It rained, drizzled, and poured. At one point I thought there might be hail so I opened the door for a look and no, it was just strong rain. And now, near midnight, the wind is kicking up and making the ventilation things whistle.

Saturday, January 23, 2021

A grey and beautiful day

 By the time I got up around 1, and did the usual things, and told myself I really needed to go downtown, I left here around 4. 

My first stop was at Dai Thanh where I got dried cuttlefish and peanuts and things, then I went over to the Amazon hub to pick up any bubble mailer I could recycle. I got 6 or 7 of them but something interesting happened this time. I went in and there's usually someone at a sort of podium near the front and this time it was an Asian gal maybe 5 foot nothing tall, who came out to "help" me get my bike in, which didn't improve things really and I muttered something about her making it worse between the three of us (myself, her, and the bike. 

I parked by bike by the bike rack they have indoors there (I don't put the bike in, because if someone else comes with a bike they can't use the 2nd position because my bike has wide handlebars and is large in general) and got right to gathering what bubble mailers were there. 

Well, Ms. Helpful followed me around closely and it didn't help that I found a smart phone in some kind of a rubber case sitting there and picked it up and said, "Did someone leave their phone here?" and I handed it to her and she said it was used in the store (maybe to take pictures of returns who knows). So she was following me around while I gathered the bubble mailers and I said I use them to ship things and I just come by when I'm in the area and pick them up, and she asked if I lived in San Francisco and I said that no, I live in San Jose, a city she may have heard of, kind of boring ... She said something like "What?" and I repeated that San Jose is boring. She perked right up and asked why, and I said that well, there's no night life and I've been watching what culture there is just leave this town and this was before the virus; the virus has only sped things up. She gushed that she was so glad I said that, and that she thought she was the only one who thought that, and so on. I went on to say that the people here are boring and that I keep meeting some really cool people but then I never see them again. It's the tech culture, I said, that people just work, work, work and live to work, they want to be robots. By this time I was going out the door and I'm not even curious about her because I'm not going to see her again. 

On the ride back, I pondered how people seem to hear me speak and think I'm better off than I really am. American culture is transactional. Person A will be friends with Person B if Person B can benefit them. I don't have enough money to be "interesting". 

I stopped at Nijiya on the way back and loaded up on stuff, then got back here. Tomorrow's a rain day. If a bit cold, it was a beautiful day with a neat sunset. And at the little free libraries I got a book from 2017 about Joni Mitchell and one called "Soul Mountain" about a Chinese guy who gets lung cancer and is about to die but then they find out it's gone and then he goes through all kinds of adventures. It won the Nobel Prize so it's probably pretty good. 

Friday, January 22, 2021

Out in the rain

 It rained overnight and past noon, until maybe 2. I packed the things I'd staged which took me up to about 4, and I eventually got out of here with the packages in large plastic bags, at a quarter to 6 or so. I didn't get rained on and it'd dried up quite a bit. It was even cold enough to wear my jacket with a long-sleeved sort of waffle-weave shirt under that, and a T-shirt under all. And of course my Awesome Safety Vest(tm) over everything. 

On my way to the post office I stopped at the area the nasturtiums grow and planted a merliton I'd bought that was getting sprouty. I'd bought two, and the one I'd eaten wasn't as good as the ones I'd pulled from a dumpster for free. I'll be able to see how the vine comes along whenever I pass by. I should put some artichokes in there too. 


Thursday, January 21, 2021

Oh, Thursday's my Friday

 Last night I made an appointment for 2 in the afternoon at the bank and prepared my pay check, drank "some" to get sleepy and went to bed around 3? 4? And woke up too early so did a half-sleep until around noon. Washed hair/head and shaved and had vitamins and tea and almonds, and got going at half after 1. 

I wore my reflective vest both because if I look like one of those little Nemo fish maybe the crazy drivers will think I'm cute and not run me over. Actually they seem to see me a lot better when I wear it. It was nice to be out in the half-sun and I still got to the bank a bit early. I just locked up the bike outside and waited there, and this really nasty looking bum wandered by and pawed at the bank door, trying to get in or something. He then wandered on, and I made sure to tell a couple waiting with me to use the hand sanitizer they keep just inside the doorway and I sure did. The deposit went without a hitch, and checking now, I've got my account balanced to the penny. It's weird how it'll go out of "phase" and then in again. 

I went to the Amazon hub only finding 3 bubble mailers but it's better than none. I then just rode back over to Nijiya and got a lot of stuff like sake and pork and instant miso and Blondie The Political Guy was there and asked me what I thought of the inauguration. I said it was nice seeing everything go without a hitch, and that the Dump will probably be this "outsider" extreme character like Lyndon LaRouche or George Lincoln Rockwell, or more recently, David Duke. 

One of the things I'd gotten was a chirashi don (various sashimi on sushi rice) and I got back here and had that with a can of beer. It was really good. I need to pretty much only cook at home and go back to one "treat" meal on payday, which for me is Thursday. I typically get my check from Ken on Wednesday, and every time I take my check to the bank on Thursday instead of waiting until Friday I'm glad I did. 


Wednesday, January 20, 2021

That little growl

 I was up until past 2, finally got to bed and woke up at 9:30 I think, then nodded off again until noon. 

But when I got up I turned on the radio and the inauguration is going on without a hitch and the orange shitbird has slunk off, saying of course that he'll be back, the South will rise again, ein Reich, ein Volk, ein Fuehrer, etc. Those last two may be fictions on my part but his followers know what he means. 

So I've got a 4-year reprieve. We're still in what we call a democracy. I hope this doesn't take a lot of "air" out of the Left because we we've said to Joe Biden, "We'll vote you in, and then we'll fight you". We need to get Medicare for all as Eisenhower originally intended, to make student debt dischargeable again, etc. 

I don't have to make panicked plans to leave within a year. I have a glimmer of a hope of having access to health care again (although simply returning to Hawaii would take care of that). 

I hope they continue to round up insurrectionists and start sending them to Guantanamo or other places, maybe some internment camp out in the desert. I had a theory that the insurrection was a trial run; to send in "expendable" members of the Dump's base, who cares if some of them get killed in probing the defenses. Then the real attack would be today. But instead all it did was activate the country's "immune system". The insurrection of boobs was the fascists' one chance. It's like that scene in nature shows where some big cat is stalking a prey animal and just before leaping, the cat makes this growl, which of course alerts the prey animal and the cat is not successful. 

If the fascists had been more capable, they'd have sent more capable members in a quick, first, hard strike and maybe succeeded. But instead they had the My Pillow Guy and Foghorn Leghorn impressionist and radio ranter Alex Jones. And "Bunker Don" who said he'd march with him and then promptly ducked into a limousine and bugged out of there. 

If they'd won the insurrection their "victory" may have been short-lived though. As I've said to as many as I could, the Dump and his followers represent an existential threat to anyone who isn't just the right kind of white with just the right kind of political stance. We on the left may have come up with cute little apps like "Find-A-Fasc" and hunted down fascists in our own towns. The military would have on the people's side too because the US military has a severe allergy to dictators. 

I'm still not happy with Biden's "healing" nonsense. You don't win a Nazi's soul, you shoot him center-mass right in the heart. 

I spent hours packing four large boxes, two of them heavy too, while wondering if I'd get them all onto the bike trailer. I left at 6 with all of them on there all right. I rode very carefully and walked some tricky places, but I got them to FedEx without them shifting at all. 

I picked up packing stuff on the way back and put that all away, picked up a large box from a place in the complex here that's big enough to go under my futon, and by that time realized it was just about 8 so I cooked up a nice bowl of pork and cabbage miso soup. Then I listed the things I'd prepared last night and just as I was finishing up the last item Ken came by. 

Ken had tons of boxes and some interesting things to list. We talked about the usual things and when the conversation slowed I got out my Umarex BB gun Glock replica, and I said "This is the bonus money you gave me" but really, the gun and BBs and CO2 cartridges came to $140. I didn't want to open it up "because knowing us there will be BB holes somewhere" but I realized there will be reviews on YouTube. 

And it turns out I made a good choice - one reviewer showed how accurate it is but nothing on how to load it etc. but one reviewer, Andy's Airguns, did a very good review showing all the details. When Ken was ready to leave, I asked him to let me know if this one instrument in the warehouse is ready to list and showed him how I'd put all the Motorola stuff with the motors in this one area, and at one point said, "I have to be a model prisoner if I'm going to make it through four more years of this" and Ken just said, "I know". He knows that while I know a fair amount about tech, I don't love it the way he does.

Tuesday, January 19, 2021

Koff, koff

 On my way back from shopping yesterday I noticed the lunch truck that stops in front of the complex was there so I got a half burrito for another $2 and came in here and ate it with hot sauce. I'm not sure which food item I got from there disagreed with me, but felt kind of crappy and had to blow my nose a lot. 

I was up until close to 6 in the morning between packing a ton of packages to stay ahead of shipping, and finding and listing 10 things on Ebay. Dinner was short neck clams I'd bought a bag of at H Mart, with some fresh green beans and garlic, simmered in a broth using sake, a little shoyu and a little mirin. It was pretty good. 

Because I was up until almost 6AM and because I'd drank a bit less than the night before, I woke up around 9 then went back to sleep until noon. I had a headache and a cough and very cautiously had some tea, coffee, aspirin, and some raw sunflower seeds. 

I loaded up the bike and got on the road at 2. Actually being out in the sun and the wind seemed to make me feel better. The going was very slow due to the wind. The drop-offs went smoothly and I found a fair amount of packing materials too. 

Back here, I nibbled on things like natto, more seeds, raw peanuts, etc. I got my stuff together and actually did a haircut. The trouble's been, I've waited too long between cuts. I need to make it a streamlined process that I do every few weeks, because I've been letting my hair get long enough that I have to "clear the underbrush" using a longer clipper shoe before getting down to business with the #2 and #1. And then I need to shave my neck, because for some reason the hairs that grow there are clipper-proof. But I got it done and it's a great feeling. 

I also vacuumed the shop and cleaned the bathroom, and got stuff out of the warehouse that had sold, plus cooking up a bowl of clam and green bean miso soup and eating that for dinner and did the dishes before Ken  was due to show up - in case he was showing to tonight. But he didn't. This is exactly the right way to do things, though. Clean the office and bathroom, take a thorough bath, which I had right after the haircut, and then things are optimal if Ken shows up Tuesday or Wednesday. 

Hell, I even found time to put all the Motorola stuff, radios and walkie-talkies and mics, etc., in one area in one of the cabinets with some motors. Motors, Motorolas; it all makes sense.


Monday, January 18, 2021

MLK Day 2021

 Well we've made it to MLK Day. There's a lot of stuff on the radio and on Reddit about him - he studied every philosopher under the sun and was much more of an intellectual than even I thought. And of course when he started to realize the real problems were class based rather than race based, the ruling class had to get rid of him. Preach all you want about the plight of blacks but when you start saying stuff that makes sense to millions of working-class whites, lookout. 

I didn't go to bed until 3AM or so and woke up at 11. I drank less last night and did no weird sleepwalking antics. I pretty much slept the night through except for two weird dreams. In one, I was selling my youngest sister a Geiger counter for $500 but I had to set up a paypal for her to pay me. In another, my dad was doing handy work on two little houses a house or two apart so it was hard to tell which one he'd be at. I'd lent him my bike and he'd left it out over night with the result that someone had stolen the rear(!) tire, the better one, plus my dad had ridden it through red paint so there was that. 

How completely random. Maybe it's because I sang a rather lot last night; lots of They Might Be Giants which is a very random band. 

I finally got going around 2:30 or 3, was going to go downtown to Lee's and get a couple of egg rolls and eat those, then pick up a book I'd bought on Amazon; "The Conquest Of Bread" by Peter Kropotkin. The lunch truck was out at the front of the complex though so I got a $2 special breakfast sandwich thing and ate that there, leaving most of the crust for the birds. 

I checked the little free libraries and the Japantown one had all the books stuffed in spine-inward. So I re-arranged them all so a person can read from the spines what's there and not have to touch them at all if they don't want to. There weren't any books I wanted at either one. 

I'm working out how to avoid "Hamsterdam" which is what I call the area right around City Hall, for instance 4th, 5th, 6th streets and there are always several nasty looking bums around. I've been riding through that area far too much and what happens is, if the local creeps get used to seeing one, they get more curious and willing to attack. So I went around, over to 2nd which can be hinky too, and over to the Amazon place. 

There were a fair number of bums out today. Anyone normal is not hanging around outside so the bums have the streets pretty much all to their own, ans the guys with bike trailers still have to make their rounds, scrounging and stealing, because crack dealers don't take IOUs. 

I got my book and 12-15 bubble mailers and it was super quick and easy. I just don't know why the keyboard part of the check-in terminals are unlit. Maybe 99% of people checking in are just using the bar or QR code on their smartphone. 

On the way back I stopped at Nijiya and got sake, a beer but a smaller can than I usually get, other odds and ends. The blonde guy who's into politics was there and said he'd been reading a lot about the insurrection and thought a lot of things about it were very "weird". I said I found it frightening, disgusting, and very depressing. I said that bunch are "an existential threat to anyone who's not just the right kind of white people" and I hope he got the message because I'm pretty sure he's half-Japanese. At least we get these little talks. An American company would have reprimanded him or even fired him for political talk and I'd have been told to cut it out, too. 


Sunday, January 17, 2021

Regressing2?

 I ate a lamb shish kabob plate from "Baba's Falafel" on the other corner from the FedEx place, and figured if I ate well and drank a lot I'd go to sleep early and thus get up early. This worked with mixed results. Yes I was up early, and was apparently up even earlier to pee, missing the toilet but hitting my pants and he head of my bed?? 

So I was awake at 7, went back to mostly sleep until say 9, then am actually out of bed at noon. I have some cleaning up to do. 

The news on the radio continues to be horrible. There are now more troops stationed in the national capitol than in the Middle East which in a way is a good thing because white nationalists are magnitudes more dangerous to Americans than anyone in the M.E. 

But it's a weird feeling; I was saying early on that the insurrectionists were set to stage a Beslan 2.0 and it's only days later that those who should be concerned are concerned. 

Oh - I did wake up early enough to catch most of the Temple service that starts at 10:10 (shades of https://www.ten-ten.org/ lol) and heard a great sermon by a sensei that it was made clear by Rinban Sakamoto had traveled allllll the way from San Leandro "in these times" such a long trip being remarkable. 

Among other things, the dharma talk was about Shinran Shonin's analysis of religions. There are three types, he says. There's the kind where people think if they do this or that, they'll get rewarded in return. Like pulling the handle on a slot machine. These are false religions. Then the second type are those where if you refine yourself, you will be rewarded. These are benign. Examples of these might be religious orders where people are vegetarian, take vows of poverty, etc. The effects are positive but no one can follow those perfectly. This is where Pure Land Buddhism splits with other branches of Buddhism. Because Shinran could never do the things perfectly himself. That's the point where his teacher, Honen, taught him the beautiful simplicity that became Jodo Shinshu Buddhism. 

Every day I think about escape ... For now to quote the airline commercial "you are now free to move about the county" but for how long? Will we adopt a system like China's where cities are ranked 1st, 2nd 3rd etc. and you have permission to live in certain cities but maybe not the top ones unless you've got a lot of social capital? For instance I'd be allowed to live in the city of my birth, and maybe in Hawaii because I grew up there and my Social Security number is from there. China actually does this, like most things the do, for good reason - they don't want people flooding into the cities and creating a situation like the US where the average farmer is in his 60s. 

Poverty alone tends to keep people anchored in one place. I have a bit over 5 grand saved up mainly because I haven't paid my 2019 taxes. Probably 2 grand of that doesn't belong to the IRS. I've been holding off on paying until I'm sure we're still a democracy. I know I'll have to pay some penalties and probably won't get the 2nd stimulus check  because of this but if democracy is saved for another 4 years I feel the extra cost is worth it, and if the Dumpos pull off a coup it's time to make plans to make tracks. Hang paying taxes for now. The time to leave for Hawaii may have been yesterday. 

I took off for for H Mart in the late afternoon. Got two bottles of sake and some TP which was at a really decent price, and $20 back, $15 of which went for some fried chicken from "Thai Recipe". It smelled great but after about 1/2 hour dangling in a bag off the bike handlebar it was OK but nothing exciting. 

It had been sunny and hot outside. I wore no sweatshirt under my jacket and even rode with the jacket unzipped so it spread out in the wind but hey, that only makes me more visible. It was not at all like a day in January at all although I remember a hot January day in Santa Cruz with the girlfriend I had then. 

I was on a bottle of nigori (cloudy) sake from H Mart and I think nigori can spoil easily or something because it was just plain rank. I ended up pouring it down the sink. Really fresh nigori is good in its own way but this had probably been sitting there on the shelf at H Mart for a long time while the shoppers there chose between 256 varieties of soju and 256 varieties of beer.

Saturday, January 16, 2021

Regressing?

 Last night I decided I wanted to drown my sorrows in some shopping, so I took the US Postal Service packages which I didn't need the trailer for, and took off just a bit before 6, so I'd be in the dark so I took my cutesy yellow tape wrapped billy club that's really a long bolt used to fasten wire reels together. I carry that with the strap around my wrist so it'd be really difficult for a zombie to take it from me, even if I were jumped by surprise and knocked off my bike. Not taking chances here. 

But I actually had zero zombie problems in fact I didn't even see any of the filthy things. I dropped off the packages at the post office and got stuff at H Mart which meant a smoked fish and some surimi, other odds and ends, and since the large bottles of sake were pretty wiped out, a bottle of sake of some new to me, Korean-sounding, brand and a bottle of Sho Chiku Bai nigori. 

I went right back to the shop here and had smoked fish, seaweed (I have a lot of it that H Mart was throwing out) and surimi. I intentionally declared "pau hana" for the day in the hopes that if I ate well, got good and drunk, and went to sleep early, I'd get up early. It didn't work. I was up around noon. 

The radio is abuzz with how the rightists are worried the white race is dying out. Oh, please. I used to think that when I was in Hawaii but then I came to the mainland. They're not dying out. They breed like rabbits. They pretty much run everything here They're in no danger at all. 

PhotoLukeHawaii just put up a simple video of a walk around Honolulu's Chinatown and will I ever happily take my place at or near the bottom of the social order just to be back home. I swear even the cucumbers were smiling. 

I got out of here with some FedEx packages a bit after 5. I wanted to get something from one of the local stores to eat and settled on Baba's Falafel and got the lamb shish kabab plate. That was $17-odd counting in the tip, but I'd figured it would be that much. 

Coming back, riding through Fry's parking lot, I rode through a group of three bicyclists, who did not strike me as friendly. I looked back when I could and saw a white light; white usually being on the front telling me maybe they were considering coming back around after me. I rode quickly over to Rogers and stopped at the old building and turned all of my lights off, 

I got back here OK and started in on my big meal of the day. It was really good.

Friday, January 15, 2021

Preparing for 3-day holiday

 Monday's a holiday (MLK Day) so I want all the shipping out. The news on the radio is depressing, depressing, depressing. 

I drank so much sake last night that I did random things, woke up pointed the wrong way in bed, so it's possible to get that schnockered even on 15% wine. I'll have to be more careful. Probably shouldn't have coffee in the evening at all because then I "need" more wine to get sleepy.

I also didn't get up until past noon. I wanted to get every last package out but will have to settle for the ones I staged last night plus one more that's going in a box I thought I'd never use, that originally held a Dell monitor. Double win - getting that annoying box out of here and it being a good fit for the gadget I have to ship. 


Thursday, January 14, 2021

Nastiness even in the daytime

 Up at 10. I got online and made an appointment with my bank for noon, and got cleaned up and shaved etc., and was out of here at 20 after 11. 

I stopped by the temple to drop off my January pledge. They'd sent it back to me, pointing out that I'd not signed, nor put an address, on the money order. So I'd done those things and packaged it all up again in an envelope along with a stamp to pay them back for the stamp they'd used. I just put this in the mail slot. I hope I got it right this time! 

I rode down 5th and along one side of St. James Park noticing there are a lot of really out-of-it zombies even before noon, and didn't think much of it. 

I got to the bank, locked the bike up, then took a little walk around San Pedro Square because I was early. I got back at ten before noon, and was invited in. I was doing, you know, bank stuff when everyone got excited and started saying "Alex! Alex! Your bike!" There was a scumsucker out there looking in my bike bags. A guy from the bank; a big guy, and I went out there and I had my pepper spray handy. "Oh, I'm sorry about the bike" the scumsucker said, and started to walk away. We made it evident that we'd watch his filthy ass until he was far away, and as he left he turned around and produced a box of cigarettes. "Want a cigarette?" asked the bum. "No, I don't smoke" I said in a naturally-occurring contemptuous tone. 

Big Guy and myself went back into the bank, and marveled at that waste of oxygen offering a cigarette. "Only the scum of the earth smoke these days!" I said, and all agreed. So then, my bank stuff got done and they told me I can just bring my bike inside if I like in the future, and the talk became, not about the recent insurrection and the possible upcoming civil war, but of scumsuckers and how awful they are. 

After leaving the bank I lost my semi-enthusiasm for going to Whole Foods, and could not even get interested in going anywhere else downtown so I decided to just go home. There's an area I'm coming to think of as "Hamsterdam"; it's where 5th and 6th streets meet City Hall and is typically full of scumsuckers. Hamsterdam would also be a good term for St. James Park, so it's a sort of general area. 

I was riding back through this area when a scumsucker followed me on his bike for a short while and even cutting across and up onto a sidewalk didn't shake the zombie completely but the zombie did break off the chase. So I need to start riding new routes that avoid at least most of the scumsuckers. 

I stopped at Nijiya on the way back for some shopping, and when I was asked "How are things going for you?" or something to that effect I said, "Not good" and gave a rundown of my scumsucker-y day. After all, the employees there have to deal with scumsuckers too and they need to know when scumsucker activity is increasing.

Wednesday, January 13, 2021

More Trials

 I had stuff all lined up to list on Ebay and was starting to make a bowl of salmon miso soup when Ken came by. Of course I had to stash the things to list away, and put the soup on hold. He had some huge boxes I had to find a place to stash upstairs, some other boxes and things to list, and then it was the usual BS session where we talked about science-y stuff. 

By the time he left it was close to midnight and by the time I'd had my soup and wound down and drank some sake it was 3AM. So I was up around 11 this morning. At least I have a load of packages all packed. 

I turned on the radio and the impeachment trial is going on. I can't believe anyone still supports the orange turd but some do. In his 2nd inauguration address, Lincoln said,

"With malice toward none; with charity for all; with firmness in the right, as God gives us to see the right, let us strive on to finish the work we are in; to bind up the nation’s wounds; to care for him who shall have borne the battle, and for his widow, and his orphan—to do all which may achieve and cherish a just, and a lasting peace, among ourselves, and with all nations."

and then they shot him. Why don't people see the clear message here? Lincoln didn't win the Civil War, soldiers like General Sherman did. You don't reason with slavers and fascists, you make 'em dead. Because that's exactly what they plan for you. 

Maybe that's why zombie movies are so popular. Maybe deep down there's still the instinct that tells us you don't reason with the child molester, the psychopathic killer, the aspiring committer of genocide, any more than you reason with a zombie. You kill 'em.  This is why preserved bodies are found in marshes, chased there by angry villagers or tribespeople who knew they needed killing. Otzi the "ice man" comes to mind. No one tries to cross the Alps alone; he was fleeing after committing some heinous crime. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%C3%96tzi

I got an email back from Ran Prieur today. I'd sent him one giving more background to how dangerous it was to be known as a glasses-wearer under the Pol Pot regime. I'd worked with people who'd been through it and also sent him the link to the very good documentary by John Pilger, "Year Zero". Ran replied that "people want a fresh start" when times are tough and this often makes them willing to do "terrible things". I told him that since he lives in an area of the US founded to be a white homeland (he's in the Pacific Northwest) he might want to consider either being very careful or leaving, depending on how the next week goes. 

Evening: They voted to impeach the orange turd and now many politicians are getting credible death threats. Fun, fun. I left at almost 5 with my load of packages and dropped them off. I knew it would be getting dark on the return half of the trip and should have brought my billy club made from a long bolt because sure enough, I was checking for packing materials and a scumsucker was around there on his bike, and seemed to hover around a bit. I kept my pepper spray in my hand but I was really not being smart, being out after the sun's down without a real weapon. I nonchalantly sped out of there and checked for stuff at the electrical supply but every "spider sense" was telling me to just get back to the shop so that's what I did. Stupid me for for being out that late at all.

Tuesday, January 12, 2021

The Love Ride

 Up at 10, I don't like this trend of being a little later each day. 

It's gloomy and grey out there but I guess not going to rain, just shadowless greyness. 

This thing with the Dump getting his followers all excited, telling them that he was going to march with them to the Capitol and then of course getting into a limousine and going home to watch golf or something, is really familiar to me. 

In the 80s there was something called the "Love Ride" which was mostly Harley riders but all were welcome. I'm not sure if it was the first one, or just the first one to get Jay Leno to (supposedly) ride in it, but I paid I dunno, $25 or $35 I forget, and thought it'd be really great to ride with Jay Leno who was really big in motorcycle circles at the time. I've even met him a couple of times; he's a nice guy. 

So I go out on this thing on I forget which bike; it might have been my souped up Kawasaki GPz 550 or my Yamaha SRX-6. It might even still have been a big BMW I had; I was really into bikes at one time. 

Well, there were riders lost and going off in different directions, somewhat convinced they were going the right route, and Harleys broken down by the side of the road everywhere. There was supposed to be a sort of party - again with Jay Leno - at the end. But I never found it and I suspect many didn't. It may have been a case of Jay just staying home to watch golf or something. 

The whole thing felt like a scam and I already wasn't fond of Harley riders. Of course it's worse now, the Venn diagram of 'Rump supporters and Harley riders being a perfect circle. In fact motorcycling has become so "tribal" where you're a Harley rider or a sportbike rider or one of those guys with an enduro with those big aluminum bags on the side, or you ride BMWs etc. I've learned, these days, to not even mention that I've ever ridden a motorcycle around any motorcyclists I meet. But that's a rant for another day.

Monday, January 11, 2021

A tall bird and a small bird

 A tall bird and a small bird .... 


 

Up at 10, cleaned up a bit and did "maintenance" on my feet, had natto and almonds and tea for breakfast.

I'd emailed my aunt last night and got a response, she's just as taken aback by current events as I am. I sent her a detailed reply, saying that I plan to move home to Hawaii in 4 years because I want to wait until I've got Social Security as a lifeline. But that depending on how things go, I might work on moving back there ASAP. Better to be homeless there, than dead here, I said. I also put in plain words, my "situation" here which is a place to live and $300 a week. The chance that she, with all her millions, might want to help me is very small but it is not zero. 

I got going at a little after 12. I dropped off some trash and bottles etc in Japantown, found a couple of books at the 5th street little library, and went to Lee's and got a couple of egg rolls which I took over to the college and ate at a nice place I've found, where I'm in the sun, out of the wind, and there's a trash can right there. There was a security guard right there too, but I ignored him and he ignored me. 

I rode over to Dai Thanh and got raw peanuts and dried cuttlefish and another thing or two, and on my way there I pondered that the homeless people I see are almost all white with a sprinkling of blacks - hardly any Hispanics and almost no Asians. I know one Asian homeless guy and he's pretty far gone but what's funny is I've kind of befriended him - at least he's appreciated the few bucks I've given him which is a rare thing among homeless. It's pretty apparent though that the more hyper-individualistic the culture, the more homeless people of that culture you'll see. 

I went by the Amazon hub and picked up bubble mailers and a book, "Berlin Embassy", written in 1940, that was being discussed on Reddit and I decided to buy. It's one of those print-on-demand books which is fine with me as the quality of those appears to be quite good. It's a large book, 8X11 inches.

Next was Nijiya for a big shopping trip. I picked up more of those egg mix things which are just in little packets on a sort of hanger, held on with double-sided tape. Because they're offered so casually and are not very big, I thought they were 89c or something like that. They're not. They're each over $3 - no wonder the stuff's so good. At least $12 of my shopping today was due to buying four of those. 

I decided to be different and got a couple of containers of sake that come in what are essentially tall slender milk cartons with a little pour cap on the side of the top. So, with all the stuff I got it was about $70. No more spending until Thursday.  

Last night I drew a picture of a tall bird and a short, compact one. There's a famous ink painting that I'm not sure is Chinese or Japanese, of, I think, a short squat bird next to some tall slender reeds. That was the sort of idea I had in mind.


Sunday, January 10, 2021

It's Just Buisness


 

On Reddit, a lot of people can't spell the word "business". In fact lots of people probably can't spell it right anywhere. They spell it "buisness". I would pronounce that "bwuizz-nezz" and think it's pretty funny. And I have a definition. Buisness is when business is done badly. 

Years ago I was in the Sunnyvale Fry's Electronics; the store was really dying even back then. They had a sale table with things that had been opened, were shopworn, etc. In the middle of the collection was a pair of wire cutters of the type used in electronics. One side of the cutter part was broken off. So it was on sale, reduced 25% or something ridiculous. Because obviously they're not just degraded in usefulness, they're useless. That's buisness. Or when it takes me hours to find something in the warehouse here that sold for $5, that's buisness too. 

I've slacked off on my voice-training thing which I really should stay with because it's good for my voice even if I never become a singing busker. 

The truth is, I really don't know what to do. When I was playing trumpet in the before times, it was easy to get feedback; just go out and busk. But I can't go out and sing (or play trumpet) now because it spreads germs like crazy. I haven't even seen Leroy out with his sax for a while. I hope maybe he was able to get a grant from San Jose Jazz or some kind of help from some admirer, so he doesn't have to go out for a while. There's hardly a crowd to busk for, anyway. Since the virus is "now worse than ever" and everyone's been told so on the radio, people are being extra careful. 

To think at one time I was seriously considering saving up, renting a small office where I know they let you sleep in them, and just playing trumpet. I was going to play at all the Whole Foods in the area and perhaps do other things like sell pull-throughs I'd make and teach at the beginner level. Instead of doing all this stupid fol-de-rol for Ken, I'd just do what I'm interested in. 

How things change ... the trumpet is not a good fit for Hawaii and doesn't seem to be the best fit for me, physically. My hands are too small to make a go of it on violin. I might have something going with singing but it's going to take a lot of time to develop - need to keep up with the exercises and get a decent mic and start recording myself. The worst that can happen there is I end up with a healthier, stronger, voice. 

So, aside from the stronger voice thing which I've concluded is well worth doing, I'm still stuck in the old "What am I really meant to do?" rut. 

I think some of this comes from growing up middle-class. We had tons of books around the house so I could read up on any subject. My parents were frustrated artists so we had tons of art supplies and I was strongly encouraged to go into that. But we had sports, and the ocean to play in, and we grew up on good music because my dad had the most varied musical tastes I've seen in anyone. With my eyesight so wonky I think music was the thing for me. 

I may have even been more "musical" than I remember, because I think my memory got wiped out around the age of 4 or 5. I think the anesthetic from one of my eye operations did it. According to my mother, I had a whole set of "characters" with different personalities that I'd do voices for, and she was dismayed that I had no memories of them at all. "Don't you remember the 'goik'?" she'd ask. And I'd have to say in a tired tone, "No, Mother, I really don't remember the 'goik', I'm sorry". That goik must have really been something. It sounds like something my dad and I probably came up with. He was extremely literate and loved puns and word play. So there was the possibility in the air of becoming a writer, too. 

All of this is well and fine as long as we'd stayed middle class. By the time I was in my teens we were about as poor as people got in those days and that means, not having to shut off cable, but having no electricity once in a while, no phone, and not enough food. Now if I'd grown up like that all along I'd be much better adjusted because I'd not have the distractions of knowing about interesting middle-class careers like writer or artist or scientist or what have you. I'd have gone to work for the local supermarket chain and stayed there for life, or some nice boring career like that. 

And I'd be better off by now, probably owning a house in Manoa or something. In fact, looking at its sales history, there was a time when, if I'd gone right into a trade and not mucked around with college, I probably would have been able to buy our old place on Portlock Road and thus fulfill my life's dream: To own it and have it available for anyone in my family, or everyone in my family, to live in. I quite possibly could have become a carpenter and would have had the skills and connections to fix the place up because it was probably so cheap because it was falling apart. 

In Hawaii great value is placed on being "humble" and I would sure be better off if I'd followed that rule. But as I keep telling myself, I've only got the perspective I have because I've gone out and done so many things. 

On a lighter note, I was up a little after 10 and watched the live stream of the temple's service. Darn it, I wanted to watch the kids' service too which starts at 9:30 I think. 'm curious how it's different from the adults'/English service. I had my usual natto and some sunflower seeds and green tea, and reflected how this time a year ago, my brekkie would have featured chicory coffee with heavy cream in it, and how much of a hassle it was to keep fresh cream around. 

Quite a bit later I remembered I had this ... stuff in pouches. It seems the Nijiya Market has these little hangers everywhere with stuff in little pouches. It's things from little Pikachu's cut out of nori to put on your kid's bowl of rice to the vinegary stuff you mix in rice to make sushi rice, and so son. So I grabbed three different ones the last time I was there and I got one that was "wood ear" mushrooms that I put into my pork miso soup last night and turned out to be a pretty large quantity of them once they'd re-hydrated. They were good, too. One turned out to be a little freeze-dried brick of stuff you're supposed to mix into eggs then put the result in a little ramekin and put that into water barely hot enough to boil, and end up with this sort of savory egg custard sort of thing. I just re-hydrated the little block with some sake, mixed it into eggs, and scrambled them - it was really good! There were tiny shrimps and veggies and stuff in there and I used no additional seasoning, and I'll have to get more of those. 

The last one is "ma bo tofu" seasoning so maybe I'll have ma bo pork tonight or something.

Saturday, January 9, 2021

A real do little of anything day

 I woke up at 10:30 and decided to do what I'd been doing for a while most Saturdays which is read a book. I read "Pau Hana" by Ronald Takaki, one of my Little Free Library finds. It's an amazing book and it was really interesting seeing family names I knew, places I knew and went to school, took Aikido lessons, etc., and reading "hidden history" about the strikes and collective actions the plantation workers did especially in the 1920s when there were some major strikes. 

Hawaii's always been more pro-Union than most of the US and growing up I thought that was just natural but it actually came from some bitter fights with the capitalists. This book was about plantation workers but I seem to remember many years ago on public TV in Hawaii, coming across a lecture by an Australian guy about the history of strikes and collective actions by other workers in Hawaii. Yet another reason to love the place, people in Hawaii are like the French, they have more guts than mainstream Americans. 


Friday, January 8, 2021

Lucky day

 I was awake at 8 and got up by 8:30, and if I'd dashed I could have had an early ride to the post office etc but I didn't do that. I looked at stuff online and was considering getting out of here before 11:30, and a FedEx truck came by; looking for someone or just turning around and I flagged the guy down and asked if they can take a package and the guy said, "As long as it's not Express" so I go the 75-lb package and offered to help him load it but he actually got it on his own OK. That saved me a lot of work! 

So now I could relax a bit, I packed a couple more things that were small, and left here about 20 after noon. I stopped at the green lunch truck and got a few chicken wings and a little fried bean burrito for $4, then rode to Japantown and sat down and ate on the steps of the Issei building. It was grey but not all that cold and rather nice. 

The next stop was the post office, made more entertaining by a Black lady who was really using the old "cell yell" to share her conversation on the phone with everyone in the vicinity. I just with people who do that, would make the phone louder so we could hear both sides. 

The reason for going downtown was to go to Wal-Mart mainly because they sell some inexpensive cellophane tape that I really like, but I'd find other things too. I bought Ziploc bags and some Scotch brand tape because the cheap stuff was out of stock, a can of foot powder, 4 little bottles of rubbing alcohol of which I ended up getting only one because it was one per customer, and other odds and ends. The wait in line was for-ev-er. As I stood in line and then waited while the the cashiers worked out how to cashier and stuff, I pondered my situation. 

The only thing I'd really come for was the tape, as everything else can be bought elsewhere. I can probably find comparable tape on Amazon just fine. Why do people even come here; this place is miserable. I realized it only makes sense for those who are un-banked, who don't have any means to go on Amazon, or if you've got a bit family you can indeed save a lot of money by going to Wal-Mart. But it makes no sense for me. 

To try to cheer myself up again, I looked around in Big-5 but didn't see anything I wanted to buy very much. 

I swung by the Amazon Hub and picked up 6 or 7 bubble mailers, and got a look at the burned-out building. You can see right through it. It's amazing that the fire was contained so again, congrats to the SJ Fire Dept. 

On the way back here I stopped at Nijiya for the usual things. Included among those things were a wonderful sashimi don bowl and a nice tall can of Asahi "Super Dry" beer. The sun had come out by now and it was really nice outside. I'm really digging on the elaborate Victorian houses in this town. But what makes it even better is the "quirky" architecture houses that are often sprinkled right in amongst them. 

I got back here and put things away and enjoyed my fish-on-rice and beer and watched stuff on YouTube. Last night I watched a bunch of stuff about sumo so I watched more stuff about sumo.

Thursday, January 7, 2021

Insurrection

 What an afternoon/evening. 'Rump supporters tried to pull a War of 1812 on the White House and the police and Secret Service only shot one, where they should have been mowed down like the mad dogs they are. Three more died of FatAssItis, so that's good for a chuckle. 

Dinner was some pork miso soup with some of the fresh wakame I'd bought at H Mart and it was really good except the wakame is salted and it ended up really salty so I'll have to rinse it first. 

Ken came by and wrote out my check and we had the usual BS session. I told him that as a Republican and Trump voter of course he wants democracy destroyed but myself, I want to see us become like a Western European democracy, where you have some aspects of capitalism but a good social safety net. It would not become a "hammock" because, in my life, the economy has always been touch-and-go and I've had long periods with no work and I always found something to do. We talked about how China leapt forward because they adopted some of the aspects of capitalism. Then we drifted into talking about how nationalist they're becoming now and I told him about how I'd been following YouTubers laowhy86 and SerpentZA for years now and they'd had to get out of China because of how nationalist it got there, with one of them having to smuggle himself and his family out. 

The DC police etc. eventually rounded the chuds up and headed them out, but the radio and internet are abuzz, as they should be on the topics of: They are terrorists not just out on a prank. The stark double-standard regarding Left or non-white protestors and these actual, white, terrorists. And the one nutzo gal that was shot was a terrorist and nothing of value was lost. Plus tons of talk about the 25th Amendment and I hope they use it pronto. 

I was really grey out there and looked like it might rain. I have one large, as in quite large, thing to pack and a few small ones so I decided not to do deliveries today, but made an appointment for my bank for noon. That gave me time to have my natto and nuts and tea and so on, catch up on some Internet stuff, and head out of here at a quarter after 11. 

It was grey and gloomy and a bit cold. Thinking about it, it was kind of like a foggy winter day on Balboa or Lido Island down in Orange County. I went over to the bank and got my deposit done, and went over to the Amazon Hub to pick up some little reclosable bags I'd ordered. I also got some bubble mailers for mailing. But, getting over there was interesting because there was tons of fire and emergency equipment and the whole block, blocked off. And smoke. I had to go over to 4th and then to San Fernando and get in that way, with all signal lights off and cops managing traffic. 

The smoke smelled like when I was a kid and the old guys used to burn their trash on the beach. In good old now wealthy and snooty Hawaii Kai, along Portlock Road, they'd make a big pile of whatever kind of junk they wanted to get rid of and burn it on the beach. Of course I thought this was great. It turns out the building where several businesses were, like Cinebar (a bar with movies and now I regret never going in) and Chacho's (Mexican-ish food?) had burned down to just the brick shell. I found some video on Reddit and it's amazing the San Jose Fire Department was able to keep it contained. By the time I came along it was just about over. 

Of course two of the check-in terminals in the Amazon Hub were off and the one that was working, had no backlight on the keyboard part of the screen but being pretty largely a touch typist I was able to log in OK. 

Next stop was Nijiya for sake, some pork to weigh into portions and put in the freezer, various groceries like that. It was now half after 12 and it was nice - no line at all.

Wednesday, January 6, 2021

A Sort of Political Hangover

 After packing all those items, really "clearing the decks", I cooked up a big bowl of miso soup with mackerel for dinner. After that, I needed to get a load of laundry done so I did that, and by that time it was about 11 so I decided to call it quits for the day. I was actually hanging my laundry up at midnight so it was a late night without intending to be. 

Then it was time to drink sake and watch YouTube and get ready for bed. I used the toilet and it was clogged! Fortunately my toilet-fu is as on-point as you'd that of a young-end boomer to be, and I quickly shut off the valve and grabbed the plunger I keep ready to go, and had it unclogged in no time. I hope a sock didn't go down there when I was doing laundry! "It's 2AM and here I am, Mr. Fixit" I thought, so that's about how late I got to bed. 

I woke up at 8 or so and could have done my desired 9AM launch to deliver packages, but I did not. I wanted to stay in bed SO bad, and I sort of drifted into a weird dream. Part of that dream was my being outdoors somewhere, and there was Ken. He'd buzzed his hair and beard very short so he looked different. Aside from small talk I asked him why he was up and out this early (it was maybe 9 or 10AM in this scene) and he said, "Biden". So I could see this election was as stressful for him as it's been for me. 

Ken being a quintessential suburbanite who lives from paycheck to paycheck on close to $200k a year, he has probably been even more worried. He listens to a steady diet of right-wing AM radio weirdos, so he probably thinks the Bolsheviks won even though the Dems are right of center. 

Myself, I was worried enough because here we are, a nation of over 300 million, depending on one of the stupidest US states to determine whether stay merely right-of-center or go full Fascist. This is why voting matters. Huge differences are coming down to a few hundred votes. This is why I'll never miss an election from here on out. I don't care if it's for librarian, dog-catcher, and Supervisor Of Trash Collection or something, I'm taking the day off and voting. 

But even so incredibly stupid a state as Georgia, famed for the Klan, inbreeding, and types right out of www.reddit.com/r/beholdthemasterrace is apparently sick of the 'Rump's shit, plus blacks, knowing they're facing an existential threat, got out there and voted. It seems to be working. I woke up again at 11. It was strangely quiet around the complex here, and I thought, Has fighting started? Better turn on the radio. It seems we're taking a step back from the edge, for now. Today's counterparts of Himmler and Goering and Speer are conceding. They can wait another 4 years... 

I left here at a quarter after noon, and first went to one of the lunch trucks I owe a dollar to, gave them the dollar, then picked out some chicken wings and a little taco and that was $4. I put those in the bike bag and took off. It looked like rain off in the distance and as I rode, I decided to drop off the packages first before eating. 

That all went smoothly, and FedEx is great these days because there's always someone right at the doorway and I don't need to go in at all.  I ate my chicken wings and taco at the "egg shaped robot place" and at first was nervous seeing all these people walking around, but then noticed it was all Asians and Indians and they were apparently taking some exercise. Some companies have programs that encourage good health.

On the way back I was checking for packing materials at the electrical supply and I felt a drop - a large one. By the time I was over checking for stuff at Sanmina it was truly raining. I pulled some packing stuff and a huge STANLEY STEEMER banner from behind Stanley Steemer, and headed right back here along Rogers Avenue as it's the most direct way. 

There was the lunch truck out front of here so I got some little fried won ton things with a vegetable mix inside for $2 and got in here and ate those with a shoyu/mustard mix. Pretty good! 

When I got back here I heard - and as usual good old NPR had the best coverage of any medium - that a bunch of fascists had invaded the White House or part of it anyway. One fascist was shot - nothing of value lost there as she had been climbing in through a window over broken glass zombie-style and was wearing a Trump flag like a cape. 1 shot 1 down, probably by one of the Secret Service. And I thank them for their service. But order prevailed, as they imposed a curfew, called in the national guard, etc. 

After futzing around online for too long, I headed out again at 5:30. It was dark, of course. I thought, If I'm going out when it's dark I should bring a weapon so I brought my little billy club thing. Sure enough, as I rode to the front of the place, there was a bum digging through one of the dumpsters by the salt place. No biggie, except I think it's the guy who poured piss in through the mail slot here and as I passed he jumped on his bike maybe to follow me I was not sure. So I pulled into a lit area and was prepared for a fight but he zoomed past and went north on Rogers Avenue. I rapped my stick on my handlebars a quick few times kind of to say, "Anytime, buddy". He actually seems to be pretty cowardly and I'm done with calling the cops on him; I'll handle the problem myself. 

I rode up to H Mart with only a few zombies/bums/scumsuckers spotted, and locked up the bike. It seems they've got something like 3-4 security guards there now, all armed, where before it was 1-2. I got a pack of butane cans for my stove because I'd just gotten some and it turned out they were all dented in a way that, to me, looked like they might not be safe. I didn't want to give them to Ken because if they're not safe for me they're not safe for his daughter to use camping. So on my first trip I'd left them by the Coyote Creek bridge. Let the bums use them and if they blow up, Oh well! 

I also got sake of course, some garlic, and interestingly, some fresh wakame seaweed which should be good in miso soup. 

Outside I heard a bluesy guitar so once I had everything stowed away in the bike bags I went over to the bench where it was a guy playing an honest-to-goodness "Dreadnought" guitar and we talked for a bit. I told him every bit I knew about good busking places including that he ought to play by Whole Foods because I was really making money there until everything shut down. We talked about all kinds of things and it was kind of nice, even if it was about the unsophisticated life of busking, how to deal with people who get pissed you don't have a light, what are good instruments to play, and so on. It was  good old time and I gave him $5 because "Hell I've got a place to go home to, you're out here" and after a while his ride pulled up so maybe he'd called an Uber or something. 

Now, an average person might be resentful that he'd called an Uber or something (it was a nice car) "Wow, I can't afford Ubers and I gave him 5 bucks!" but my thinking is, if he's able to hire Ubers and come to think of it, he didn't have things with him; not a backpack or anything besides his guitar and a gig bag, so he's got somewhere he's staying. That's great to hear because while he's bluesy, he ain't no B. B. King and yet he's apparently doing pretty well. Yet another example of how in busking the bar is pretty low because most of success is having the guts to go out there. 

I should mention completely randomly that a few days ago I heard the Good Trumpet Player, who I've heard in one of the condos near Japantown. He was doing his high riffs. It was impressive, but it seemed attainable. With practice, that most potent thing, regular practice. Needless to say he merely had more practice in than me.

Tuesday, January 5, 2021

35 items in one day?

 I was awake around 8 and up at 9. I'd "staged" 17 packages, all in bubble mailers, which means pick out the mailer for that item and print out the label. So I had to finish them, like tape them up and put the label on etc. That often only takes an hour even for that many but it took closer to two hours. 

The post office run went without a hitch, and I picked up two boxes that were perfect for a large book and a large folder. 

I went over to the lunch truck that's on Queen's Lane and picked out a tamale and some chicken wings which came to $6, but the lady didn't have change so I need to keep an extra dollar on me for her next time. I figured might as well get eating done quickly. They were both good, although the tamale seemed to have some kind of rubbery sausage in it? Frankly I don't know what I ate. 

After relaxing a bit I got to work packing more packages and not just staging them but packing them all the way. I think the earliest I've gone out on my post office/FedEx run is 9:30 and I want to try a bit earlier and see how it is. So far, the earlier, the nicer. I think if I go earlier than 9, I'll run into the tail end of the morning commuters, but at least I want to try going out at 9. 

So, I finished off 17 packages this morning, and just finished packing 18. For a total of 35. I've got everything packed except for one thing, an HP 141T network analyzer which is a big, heavy instrument from HP's golden age when they built their stuff by the pound.

Monday, January 4, 2021

Rain out of phase

 Awake around 8, up around 10. I expected it to be all wet outside, but it didn't start to just drizzle a little until about 11, which means if I'd had at least a lot of small easy to pack things packed, I could have done a post office run. I guess the moral there is to have some things packed and ready to go just in case the rain doesn't act as forecast. 

I had my "healthy" tea and natto and so on, and at 2 in the afternoon walked out under a giant rainbow to the lunch truck and got my junque food which I ate while watching a YouTube documentary. I'm sure watching a lot of YouTube lately. 


Sunday, January 3, 2021

& a Grey Sunday too

 Awake a bit after 8, 8:30 maybe. I'd gone to bed at some time past 2AM. Finally got up around 10 maybe? Rain's not coming in until midnight but it looks like it's coming any minute. I used to actually love weather like this as a kid in Hawaii because the light was different and it was cooler. 

I rode up to H Mart to get some things and it was nice and calm if grey and cloudy outside. Not a lot of traffic and I didn't have to do any zombie-dodging. Unfortunately H Mart was pretty busy, but they seemed to have more cashiers on duty to prevent lines and one or two guys acting as "concierges" guiding people to registers. That's a new job these days, the "concierge" who regulates how many people come into a store, guides them to registers, etc. 

I noticed on the way over that Fry's has these outdoor "curbside pickup" spots all numbered with orange buckets, on one of the parking lot dividers. Maybe I should have hung around to watch their system in action. To think I used to go to Fry's all the time and I'm not sure I've been there at all in 2020 or the first few days of this year. 

Renee, this homeless lady who used to use the parking lot here as her own living room, along with her felon son and daughter, is back. She had some other bums in their non-license-plated bum cars come by for various mysterious transactions and interactions. She might be hiding out here from people she's fighting with since she fights all the time. She lives on drama. In fact, I'd say 99% of homeless people do and the drama is so delicious to them that they prefer to remain homeless just to have it. 

Their lives are just about the opposite of the Buddhist or Confucian ideal of harmony. I can't plead innocent here because I was raised as an ostensibly white American and white American culture loves its conflict and drama. Starting a conversation means finding something to complain bitterly about. If you're nice to anyone you're a "sucker". 

It's taught in my temple that everything, the realm of the devas, the bodhisattvas, the humans, the animals, the hungry ghosts, "This is all right here; this is all right now" - Rinban Sakamoto. And I see it. What's an opioid addict with a traumatic brain injury but a hungry ghost? What's a guy like Carl Sagan or Noam Chomsky or Paul Robeson but something a bit like a bodhisattva? And most of us are just humans, trying to get along with our lives. 

One mere human I really miss is a guy I knew as "Fred". He worked part-time at the Nichi Bei store in Jtown. I thought he was a lot older than he was; he was quite overweight and his hair was at least as grey as mine, probably more so. He was sharp and we talked about things. I brought up my resentments about Hawaii but surprised him by talking glowingly about Hawaii's vast advantages for learning Asian culture etc. He told me he'd researched and found that much of the ruling class in the US came from Scots-Irish and they were really fighty. We talked about all sorts of things. 

Later, I'd go there and when he was there he didn't seem to recognize me, or much of anyone, frankly. Next I heard he'd died. "Oh, well, he was quite old" I'd said, or something like that. But I was told he was not old, but diabetic. I think he'd died younger than me. That's where I started feeling really bad, because I knew how to fix that. Maybe not completely, but the guy was probably eating tons of high-carb foods and not realizing that's what was killing him. 

If I'd only known. I'd have made my 2nd job Saving Fred. He was so smart, and we could have sharpened our wits against each other. I'd have shown him it's possible to eat without tons of carbs. I'd have been able to show him how to lose weight by 1 lb a week but it stays off. Maybe for him, as it was for me, once the Orange Turd was in office medical care became unobtainable. Maybe I could have helped him with that. People with smarts with regard to society are vanishingly rare here; it's all tech-nerds with the social awareness of a 14-year-old who's just discovered Ayn Rand. 


Saturday, January 2, 2021

Grey Saturday

 I was up at 9, and heard from a car passing through that it was wet out there. Just a drizzle though and it soon dried up a bit. It's supposed to rain tomorrow (Sunday) and possibly Monday too. 

I was out of here at the crack of noon to go to Nijiya and get rid of some trash and bottles too. The junk was dropped off at some dumpsters on the way, and I got a bunch of stuff at Nijiya where there was hardly a line. The total came out a big high, but I figured I'd look over the receipt when  I got home which I did rather quickly as it was looking like it might rain (it didn't). 

It turned out that I'd paid $12 per bottle for the two bottles of sake. The 5.99 price was gone, but they were listed at 8.99 and for some reason I got charged 12.99. I'll have to check and make sure they charge the right price next time. 

I settled down and ate the "school lunch bento" I'd gotten and accompanied it with a tall can of Asahi "Dry" beer. I kept waiting for rain to come in but it never did. 

Later, I tested a bunch of Motorola radios and they all power up except for one that's a much better model. I was going to part them out but I took one apart and .... it's not something you can do non-destructively. So I'll just label them A-B-C etc. and list them. Because I thought I'd be taking radios apart, instead, I "high graded" a couple of boxes of stuff and put a couple of boxes of electronics scrap out for the bums.

Friday, January 1, 2021

What fireworks?

 Awake at 8, up at 9. I'd gone to bed at about 11:30 last night and fallen asleep so fast I didn't hear any fireworks. 

After getting fully awake, I worked out an equation. If I was drinking 500ml of vodka a day a while ago, that amounts to 200ml of ethanol. I'm perfectly happy to drink a 1.5 liter bottle of sake a day, and working out the quantity of ethanol in it works out to 225ml. That's worse! However I think the vodka was more damaging, perhaps because it's more concentrated. I'm not feeling shaky and shitty in the morning (or any other time) and cutting back is pretty trivial. 

I'd bought this "oden" set at Nijiya which is just an assortment of fish cakes and a broth packet. It was big, so I divided the fish cakes in half and had that half with the broth packet for lunch, and then at dinner time I was hungry again so I did a broth that was sort of half miso and half an oden type broth and put in a soft-boiled egg too. And that was good, too. I need to figure out why the fuck I can't peel a cooked egg to save my life. Restaurants do it all right; I just don't know what I'm doing wrong. 

Not much else got done. Got some Ebay listings done, and finished reading my book on Tahiti during the first 30 years of contact with Westerners. They sure had a complicated culture for living on islands and being literally stone-age.

Cold and foggy Friday

 I woke up around 11, and even around noon it's foggy and dark.  I should mention that "dead internet theory", the theory that...